the long road.

i suspect the next 6-8 weeks at the least are going to be testing as i come off my meds. yesterday i saw my doctor and decided to wean myself off of zoloft..the healthy, sensible approach and all. after being weighed and realising i have gained 7kgs on this bloody drug in a short 6 months i am quite distressed and a massive part of me wants to go cold turkey so i can get this shit out of my system asap before i balloon out further. the thing with this weight gain is that it literally seemed to creep up on me out of nowhere. for the first 4 months or so everything was fine, i was functioning better, feeling more stable, happier etc and then in the last 2 months, BOOM hello flab, goodbye clothes that used to fit. i've never had a weight issue so don't really know how to go about shedding these extra kilos. i've been naughty and skipped my dose the last few days..starting to feel the withdrawal symptoms again, nausea, aggitation, dizziness and my emotions have been running wild in the last 24 hours alone. i couldn't stop myself from crying last night for a good hour for no reason at all and have been feeling quite irritable. the sensation that is the most unusual by far is the feeling that my brain is slipping and everything surrounding me has been put in fast forward mode. hopefully as the drug comes out of my system these sensations pass and my body adjusts.

i'm going to up my exercise, vitamin B tablets and focus on eating well. i suppose the only other thing i can do is sit tight and hold on for the ride.