really been struggling lately and it's getting me down. if only i had more will power to stop myself from eating. whenever i go out in public i find myself analyzing other girl's bodies; their thighs, their stomachs, their arms and ass. whenever i walk past a shop window or mirror and see a reflection of myself i feel like crying. this is fucked.
on another note, T came around last night. i'm glad he's back, i can't handle the rejection and i think he's the only one that can tolerate me and my stupid issues.
Keep your chin up!
ReplyDeleteIf it helps i've just got back from the Gold Coast 1 kg heavier.. I know it doesn't sound like much but I have a pretty fast metabolism and have been the same weight for the past 2 or so years!
xx
I know exactly what you mean. I'm always looking at other womens stomach and thighs, wishing mine were like that... or being glad mine aren't.
ReplyDeleteI'm at the same place right now. When I started on anti-depressants a year ago I put 11kgs on my then-44kg frame. The weight has not budged since. You, however, still look fabulous - and you should focus on that when you see yourself.
ReplyDeletethanks girls xx
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