in my pathetic 22 years of existence, i feel as though my experiences/ relationships have somewhat poisoned me. poisoned me in the sense that i am now consumed by this overarching resentment towards the fact that a) bad shit happens to good people and b) people are generally shit (especially the latter).
in my day to day exchanges i usually suck it up and mask this contempt, however i increasingly have a bitter attitude towards most things which has become difficult to hide. i try to make changes to my life but never feel satisfied with the outcomes of said changes so find myself trying to rearrange shit again in order to feel some degree of contentment. sometimes i'm tempted to quietly fuck off interstate, change my phone number and start fresh, however something tells me that running away from my problems isn't the solution.
speaking of fucking off interstate, i spent the weekend in melbourne. it could have (and should have) been amazing, but instead it was pretty average...much the same as the rest of my life at the moment, average. yeah i know, i know, cry me a river.
I know exactly what you mean.
ReplyDeletesame..sometimes I feel like moving to the other side of
ReplyDeletethe world, start afresh. I wonder if anyone would miss me.
I never ceased to be amazed by how bad stuff always happens to good people. Sending you some massively good vibes xx
ReplyDeletei'm glad i'm not the only one who feels this way! thanks for the good vibes cate :) xx
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