Wednesday, April 4, 2012

an ugly exterior.


something i really struggle with is being content with my appearance.
the majority of the time when i stare into the mirror i feel like bursting into tears for all i see is a flawed reflection gazing back at me.

it gets me pretty down seeing other girls around the place,
with their pretty faces, beautiful hair, perfect figures-
exuding confidence and natural beauty.

it probably sounds like i have a case of the green-eyed monster, however, i'm not envious..
i just wish i could feel more comfortable in my own skin.

is that too much to ask? 

3 comments:

  1. Well I think you're stunning and have felt a little jealous on more than one occasion of your flawless looking skin and great cheekbones.

    I think the key to feeling comfortable in your own skin is to start seeing yourself the way others see you, not the way you THINK they see you.

    As for staring in the mirror, please stop. Unless you're applying delicate makeup or picking black heads nothing good ever comes of it. Actually, picking black heads isn't a good idea anyway.

    Start small, find one thing about yourself that you do like and remind yourself of that everytime you see a flaw. Then continue to add to the list.

    Failing that, keep writing posts like this and I will do my best to remind you that you're gorgeous and one of those enviable people who manages to pull off both sexy and cute at once.

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  2. Great advice Miss Directions. I think you are absolutely gorgeous too but what's most important is how you feel. I think sometimes our opinion of ourselves is so distorted from who we really are. Be kind to yourself and take a moment to think about the great qualities you have. Reading your blog and posts on VF show what are sweet lovely girl you are. Let yourself believe it ❤

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  3. thank you both for your wonderful advice and sweet compliments (i just wish i could see myself in the same light) ♥

    i'm trying hard not to let my low self-esteem and negative self image dictate my life more than it should, however when these beliefs are so ingrained it's difficult to re-adjust my distorted perception. i've recently come to the conclusion that my anxiety is probably only the tip of the icberg and there's a good chance i won't recover properly if the deeper issues aren't also rectified such as my obsession with body shape/ weight. i've started seeking treatment for this too. while i feel like one big ball of crazy right now, i hope that addressing ALL my issues will be beneficial in the long run. experience tells me that when things aren't dealt with properly my head just manifests my issues into another form of mental illness- thanks head! argh.(miss directions, picking blackheads is so satisfying! :P haha) x

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