grief.

T and i are done.

i can't count how many times those words have left my lips in the past, but this time it's for real. he came and collected the last of his things this morning and has decided to move back home (4-5 hours away from adelaide). i cried, he remained calm, we said goodbye and then i watched him drive off.

for a long time we've both known our relationship is fucked, we're both drained and we both know deep down that this is for the best...nonetheless, knowing that this is the end though, knowing that he will no longer be in my life devestates me.

i feel lost and cold...but most of all i feel alone, and it is crushing.