cutting ties.

i tend to go through periods in my life where i am so disgruntled with various aspects i feel the need to strip everything back and start semi-fresh. i call this process 'cutting ties'.

i've been feeling pretty damn discontent of late, so i've decided to eliminate some of the bullshit from my life, starting with my job at myer- after three (mostly shitty) years of employment, i finally resigned today. after all the drama i've experienced at this place i would have loved to have seen myself go out with a bang (kevin spacey in american beauty style), but instead i quietly handed in my resignation letter and left it at that.

as i've previously posted, the drawn out predicament with T is now over too. i feel lonely, but surprisingly okay. i'm not sure if i've just been fooling myself into thinking that i'm okay though, or if i'm genuinely okay. whatever it is that is holding me together, i am aware that at any moment i could come unstiched. i guess only time will tell.

about six months ago i cut off most of the 'friends' i surrounded myself with, primarily because i woke up one day and realised that the majority were self-centred/ unsupportive/ annoying/ generally shit. this was a good idea in theory, however has left me kind of socially isolated. i feel that some way or another i need to start making new connections again- easier said than done.

finally, i cut my hair the other day, not a big deal as it still basically looks the same, just a bit shorter. it hadn't been cut in a while though and was getting way too long + unmanageable.

i'm unsure if any of these changes will make much of a difference to my overall happiness/ current life satisfaction but to be honest, it was getting to the stage where some changes needed to be made regardless.