winter warmers.

i'm not sure about other states but the cold, crisp winter weather is definitely beginning to set in here in adelaide so i thought i'd share with you some of my favourite recent purchases to combat the chills! 

senso benny 1 boots

sass and bide the dark cloud zippora jeans

shakuhachi gypsy sweater dress (i'm yet to get a photo of myself in this baby) 

seed fur trim anorak (same deal with this)

aaand totally weather inappropriate, but just because i can't get enough of  leopard print or vampy shades of purple/maroon lippy...

sass and bide age of love bralette + mac hang up lipstick 

...or stripes. striped short/ long sleeve tees are literally taking over my wardrobe! 

seed striped primetime linen tee

make my heart sing.

karen walker 'the number one' sunglasses in crazy tortoise

willow silk 'basic cami' in dijon 

 

 

zoe karssen 'bat jersey'  

 

mac 'up the amp' lipstick

sass and bide 'room service' leather shorts

these are a few goodies i'm currently in the process of acquiring. yum.
autumn is without a doubt my most favourite season fashion wise, therefore i tend to invest more money into my wardrobe. i love the sort of weather that is cool enough to sport knits and ankle boots, but still warm enough to comfortably venture out with bare legs. i don't know about anyone else, but i also seem to have more skill at 'putting together' autumn/ winter outfits so feel happier with what i'm wearing the majority of the time.
one thing i'm going to try my hardest to avoid doing this coming season is impulse buying- i have a terrible habit of doing this, particularly when i'm feeling depressed. nine times out of ten my impulse purchases are worn once (sometimes not at all!) and are usually 'trend' pieces that i eventually get over. i recently culled my wardrobe and developed a list of items that i really need (and know i will wear to death) for the colder months so i plan to strictly adhere to said list.

feeling festive.

so christmas finally rolled round yesterday- i hope everyone had an awesome day! my day was spent with my mum's side of the family and the boy. we did all the usual things- exchanged presents, ate, drank and soaked up the sun whilst catching up. my mum's side is italian which means there is never any shortage of amazing food at our family gatherings which is both a pro and a con. anyone struggling with weight issues would understand why...

the real highlight for me though was christmas eve. for many years it's been a tradition in my home town for most people around my age to venture to the local pub. it's always a really great night because, like me, many young people move away to the city once they hit eighteen or so to attend uni, establish their own lives etc but christmas is the one occasion where everyone returns to the country and reunites.

for most of the year i've been living in isolation. i hardly go anywhere or see anyone except my immediate family, B, a couple of close friends and my 'recovery team' (ie. psychiatrist, psychologist + hormone specialist). a few months ago you would have been hard pressed to get me in a semi-public place like a cafe let alone a pub, club or bar. i've spent most of the year not only severely depressed and anxious, but ridiculously self-conscious about my appearance due to my hormonal issues (and ectopic pregnancy) wreaking havoc with my hair, skin, weight etc. by some miracle (or perhaps sheer christmas spirit) i managed to muster up enough confidence to go out on christmas eve with one of my closest friends, T and some other girls i used to hang out with- and i'm glad i did! it was so lovely seeing old friends and being social again, and many people commented that it was great to see me out and looking a bit brighter which was kind of them.

i really can't believe 2012 is drawing to an end, however i couldn't be more enthused to see the back end of such a horrible year. 

on that note, i'll leave you with some recent festive photos. 

1. the 'modern' christmas tree i made out of branches for my parent's house (prior to presents being placed underneath). 

2. a few of the goodies i received- still loving the shit out of my wang may i add!

3.  a rare selfie. 

4. my christmas eve outfit (although i replaced the sportsgirl sandals with a pair of black sportsgirl wedges at the last minute). 

5. a little bit drunk and a little bit blurry with my babe, T. 

6. cute chrissy kisses from B. 

wang.

 

 

today i received a very exciting surprise in the form of an alexander wang diego!

considering i've been lusting over this bag for ages now i thought acquiring one deserved its own post.

B has had to listen to me rave on about how perfect the diego is for months now so without me knowing he took advantage of shopbop's recent sale which included alexander wang and bought me my own baby with rose gold hardware.

technically it's my christmas present from him but knowing how over the moon i'd be when unwrapping the parcel he couldn't wait until the 25th, but i'm not fussed!

and might i add, the diego definitely did not disappoint- i can't stop staring at it, it's so stunning.

i know some people have been turned off by its weight, and i'll admit, it's probably the heaviest bag i've owned but i'm more than happy to overlook this minor downfall because i'm in love with the style and the rose gold is so pretty.

 

i'm definitely one happy girl right now!



now the dust has settled.

to the beautiful ladies who left love and sympathy on my previous post i'd like to say a big, warm thank you for your heartfelt words. i am always pleasantly surprised by the continuous support of my followers and truly appreciate you all for allowing me to share my deepest thoughts and intimate details of my life free of judgement. you have no idea how much it means to me ♥

i spent much of last week in a codeine induced haze to ease the post-surgery pain. this period of rest also gave me the opportunity to properly digest the ectopic pregnancy and quietly mourn the loss of my baby. initially i was concerned that this traumatic event would significantly hinder the progress i had been making in recovering from my exhausting battle with depression and anxiety but thankfully i'm feeling a lot more emotionally stable this week after some TLC, visits from a handful of close friends and an appointment with both my psychiatrist and psychologist. over the weekend i was even feeling okay enough to venture into the city and purchase the sass and bide 'talara' sunglasses i had been wanting, then sunday night B surprised me with a pair of marc by marc jacobs rose gold turnlock studs and matching ring for being 'so brave and strong' the past week...and to apologise for being the guy that 'bust my tube'- ha! i guess there's kind of an amusing side to the sorry situation.

i'd take a photo of me wearing these babies but i'm looking too fugly for words right now- ugh! 

i love a good cat eye though, and the neon yellow on the sides is a bit of fun. 

gifts from B. i think it's safe to say that my collection of rose gold jewellery has been growing exponentially of late.

while i'm on the topic of new items, i'm loving these 'abbey' sandals from urge, but which colour to get- the fuchsia or leopard print?



birthday.

i turned twenty four last thursday.

most people view their birthday as a time of joy and celebration, however, with each year that passes i increasingly dread mine.

instead of accepting that growing older is an inevitable part of life, i tend to be consumed by anxiety that my youth is rapidly slipping away...and i'm not ready to let go.

fortunately i was able to push these worries aside for the majority of the day thanks to my family, a few close friends and a certain boy i've recently been hanging with making the occassion special for me. the weather was perfect so said boy took me on a picnic which involved lots of yummy food and smiles in the sun. i usually try and stick to a 'clean' diet as much as possible but that flew out the window and i indulged in a piece (or two) of nutella birthday cake decorated with an array of lollies which was all kinds of amazing!

another upside to 'getting old' was receiving some awesome gifts and being showered with love + well wishes via text message, facebook and instagram.

definitely reminded me that i am truly blessed with some beautiful people in my life- family, relatives, friends, internet friends etc ♥

i'm crossing my fingers that the next twelve months as a twenty four year old will be a year of good health, happiness and productivity...but to be honest i'll take any kind of improvement from age twenty three, being without a doubt the worst year i've experienced thus far.

1. house of harlow engraved skull necklace + multi toned skull bracelet.
2. birthday cake- so bad but so good!
3. picnic in the sun.

4. marc by marc jacobs rose gold blade watch.

5. beautiful bunch of flowers.
6. the awkward moment when you open a card and it's filled with fake money, haha.

x



my life be like..

bright lips! (excuse the shitty webcam quality)

oreo cupcakes.

one teaspoon 'hawks' (i'm a little obsessed with one teaspoon denim).

cloudy skies.

rusty/orangey goodness.