confusion.

new years eve was spent in the city jumping from one club to the next. drank a fuck load. ate a whole heap of crap i'm now regretting. didn't see the ex even though it was his birthday. got a phone call from the ex ex wanting to catch up (um?). woke up with an insane hangover. remember minimal.

yesterday arvo i hung with this guy friend..well he sat around and watched me get ready/ half cut. we banged a year ago, just a one off thing, he now has a girlfriend. subtle flirting occured and then in my drunken state i stupidly kissed the dude. when we slept together the ex and i were on a break..i feel like things could have evolved between us at the time, but i was so wrapped up in T still i didn't really persue it.

now i wonder why i didn't..this guy is a babe, has his shit together and is a genuinely decent person..but alas, i have a habit of missing the boat. fail.