panic attack.

i had a panic attack this afternoon for the first time in ages. i'm unsure what brought it on, however it is truly an awful feeling. your heart starts racing, you feel short of breath, nauseated, light headed and unable to control what is happening. because it's such an intense experience it's easy to start freaking out which only makes the attack worse. my first instinct was to ring T to come over; he's usually good at calming me down and i don't like being alone when panic attacks randomly strike, however we aren't on good terms at the moment so i had to restrain from contacting him and ride this one out by myself.