i'm feeling flat today and have a lot recently. i have zero motivation to get out of bed, shower myself, attend class, run the errands which have been accumulating, clean my house which i've put off doing since monday. i just want to sleep and sleep and sleep, until tomorrow morning..or maybe even next week. i really need to break this routine i've got myself in because nothing ever gets done. day after day is wasted, plans fly out the window and in the end i feel even more wretched and disgruntled with myself for not getting my shit together as i repeatedly tell myself i am going to do. instead i lay in bed procrastinating, watching the clock tick and thinking 20 more minutes and i'll get up, 10 more minutes and i'll get up, and so on and so fourth..when realistically 9pm rolls round and i still haven't organised myself for the day which by then has been and nearly gone. i know to most 'normal/fit/well/mentally stable people' this probably seems a little lame struggling to carry out basic, everyday activities, however sometimes i find it difficult just staying afloat and keeping my head above water.
Don't beat yourself up for having a bad time. Let yourself rest and do stuff when you're ready. Maybe you should write a journal. Go for walks and clear you mind. Even thought you probably reeeeally don't want to, do it.
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