the light in my life.

there is one person who has the ability to make me smile even when i'm feeling my lowest. there is never a dull moment in his presence and his infectious laugh brightens my darkest of days..i just wish i didn't live so far away now so i could see him more often. this person is my dad. i've wrote before how he has an acquired brain injury which has changed life dramatically for my family. on the 23rd of september it will be five years since the ordeal..five years can seem like a short amount of time or forever, however one thing i do know is the last five years have been an emotional roller coaster and a massive learning curve. i feel as though i suddenly developed more patience, compassion and matured a hell of a lot quite quickly. at seventeen this was a lot to deal with all at once, although looking back now the 18 months following dad's cardiac arrests seem like such a blur. i honestly don't know how we pulled through, but i suppose in times of crises you just do somehow. my mum is such a strong woman and an absolute gem, she is his full time carer and does a remarkable job along with my thirteen year old sister who is considered a 'young carer'.admittedly, half of my depression, apart from being genetic, stems from the fact that i haven't been able to accept the reality of the situation entirely. despite dad's disability, he is always filled with happiness and i feel a strong sense to protect him from ignorant people and the cruelties of the world. even though our roles have swapped he truly is the light in my life which can at times seem very dark and bleak.